Infertility, Pregnancy Loss, and Birth Trauma: The Grief Nobody Prepares You For

There is a category of loss that tends to be grieved in privat and with limited social permission to fall apart. Infertility, pregnancy loss, and birth trauma each belong to this category. They are significant experiences for all parties involved, physically, psychologically, and relationally. And they are consistently under-supported by a culture that does not quite know how to hold the experiences of the women and men impacted by them.

 

Infertility

Infertility involves a particular kind of grief: the grief of something that has not happened, and may not happen. That makes it harder to name and harder for others to acknowledge. There is no event, no date, no obvious before and after. There is simply the month-by-month accumulation of hope and disappointment, the medical appointments, the procedures, the physical, hormonal, and psychological toll, and a wide range of decisions to be made.

Infertility can be an isolating time. The world continues to produce pregnancies, births, and gender reveal parties, each one a reminder of what is not happening as ‘naturally’ as hoped. The pressure to remain positive, to keep trying, to not let infertility consume the relationship or the self, can make the genuine grief it brings, very difficult to express.

 

Pregnancy loss

Miscarriage and pregnancy loss are among the most common and least spoken about experiences in reproductive life. They are medically common enough that they are sometimes framed as ordinary, which can compound the grief response. The loss of a pregnancy is the loss of a future that had already begun to be imagined (a particular child, a particular life) and that loss is significant regardless of how early it occurs, or how many people know about it.

There may be a sense that it is not quite legitimate to feel as devastated as one does when a miscarriage happenes. A feeling that others have had it harder, or that the right response is to recover quickly and try again. Pressure to minimise the loss tends to extend the grief.

 

Birth trauma

Birth trauma refers to the psychological impact of a birth experience that was frightening, painful, or felt out of control. It does not require a clinical complication to be significant. The subjective experience of feeling unsafe, unheard, or powerless during labour is sufficient to produce a traumatic response. Symptoms can include intrusive memories, avoidance of reminders, difficulty bonding with a new baby, and a persistent sense of threat that does not resolve in the weeks and months following the birth.

Birth trauma tends to be under-recognised, partly because cultural and family expectations may be that the arrival of a healthy baby should override whatever happened during the birth. For the women whose experiences do not match that expectation, the gap between what they went through and feel, compared with what they are supposed to feel, can be deeply isolating.

What therapy can offer

Therapy for infertility, pregnancy loss, and/or birth trauma offers a safe space where these experience can be explored on your own terms.

Therapy can also offer a space for the relational aspects of these experiences to be addressed: the strain that they can place on relationships, the loneliness of going through something that others do not quite understand, and the complex feelings that can accompany feeling grief and hope simultaneously.

If you are navigating any of these experiences and have not yet found a space to process them, therapy may provide what you have been searching for.

Dr Erin Reid is a counselling psychologist offering online therapy to individuals, couples, adolescents, and families across the UK and internationally, and 'Walk and Talk' therapy in Northwest London green spaces. Visit drerinreid.com to find out more.